Letter to my lost child

Dear Xiao Bao,

It had been a year since we lost you on that fateful day, how are you getting on in the other world? I hope you are leading a good life there for that is the only reason why I agreed to sign the papers to let you go.

Nearly 365 days had passed since  you left, but the pain didnt ease up any as compared to then. Truth to be told, there are still times that it hurt so badly that I would cry silently during bath time. As we enter July, it makes it even harder for me this month cuz everyting will remind how I lost you this time last yr.

As much as I tried my best to lead a normal life after losing you, deep down I knew everything is not going to be the same without you. No 1 will ever understand the pain I have in my heart of losing you, the regrets of not ever having the chance to hold you in my hands, shower you with my love, teaching you the principles I had in mind all these will forever be my biggest regret. But life have to still go on isnt it?

Yesterday, we went to the temple to arrange for chanting sutras for you during the 7th month, hoping you will be able to lead a better life no matter where you are now. That is the only little thing I can do for you and I will do it for you as long as I can still do.

XB, I want you to know that there isnt a single day had passed without me not missing you though you are inside me for a short 14wks only. I hope you also know that my love for you isnt any less for any mother's love for their child.

Be good and live well wherever you are XB, for this is the biggest wish that I have for you..


Loving you always,

Mummy.

Demise of bestie's mum

My bestie's mum passed away peacefully on Thursday of pancreatic cancer. It marks an end of auntie's fight towards cancer for the last 7 months.

Truth to be told, I was badly affected by the news. From learning of her illness till her demise, it all seems so surreal.

Auntie is afterall, 1 yr younger than my mum. She just reached her prime years, with so much tat she can do. Finally her kids had grown up, got married and starting families of their own. She now wun be able to see bestie's son grow, enter school, date and eventually got married.

It feels so sad to know that during the last stage of her life, she is suffering in pain. I told bestie that its heartening to know auntie need not suffer any more after her passing, but deep down I know there is no way to take away the pain of losing your mum despite knowing this is the only way that she need not suffer.

I feel for bestie too, to lose her mum at this stage of life where she would have so much to share with her mum. Her happiness, her troubles, her worries, the details as she embark on her journey of motherhood and more to come. Auntie wun be able to be here to see and feel, it certainly leaves one big void in her life.

As I controlled my tears when I paid my last respect to auntie yesterday, I silently prayed to her to watch over bestie and her family and for Baby G to grow up well.

一路好走, Auntie. 永别了。。。希望您在另外一个世界过的好。。

李式笑话- 1 year older

Mr Love was complaining to me how disappointing the food at Shangri-la Rasa Sentosa. He had heard me commenting that I saw good review about their The Line buffet in the Orchard branch and had high hopes for this 1 too. Hahah..

So, I told him to bring me there for my 30th bday celebration and the price is SGD 98++/pax if my memory didnt failed me.

The ever beri stingy hubby then asked me, I tot you are turning 31 next yr?

Beri nice, used my Lunar age so that he can escape treating me to this expensive buffet..Damn..

李式笑话-Automation

I have this habit for leaving the dishes in the sink if I had to do something else 1st.

Today, since I wanna continue with my knitting, I placed the cups in the sink 1st and thinking that I would wash later.

Hubs later went in and saw the cup and washed it clean but later came out and suan me.

Mr Love: "  老婆!!!"  He called out excitedly.
"我们新买了一个洗手盆,  auto de"

Me :"huh? ? Where got?"

Mr Love: "Got, some 1 left a cup there hoping for it to be washed automatically,  and it did!!"

Me: .........

绕了一圈,原来是要挖苦我。。。

最美丽的事

两个人在一起 ,最美丽的时刻,是闲话家常。

How true this is.

I looked forward to dinner every night where we will update each other about our day at work.

No detail is too small to say, no problem is too complicated to share.

Many a time, we just need a listening ear.

If we didnt have time for dinner together,  we will try to haf a short conversation just before bed time, sometimes till 1 party falls aslp while chatting.

I always njoyed n treasured this times spent.

Now that I saw this saying on tv den I really how beautiful these time are. :)

Spoilt rotten

不知道是否因为我太囉说,
竟然一天内收了两只黑猫。
虽然多了一只,可是还是舍不得让出去
鱼与熊掌是难取舍的。
毕竟,是送的人的心意。
我会好好收藏的。
谢谢你们,因为有你们宠着我,
让我感觉有人疼爱是一件非常幸福的事。

妈妈说,让我别那么任性,胡闹。
可是我也只是发发牢骚嘛。。
都是那些混涨东西,抢了我的猫。
害我被妈妈骂!!!