Back to work

After 2 wks of  bed rest, I finally went bak to work this wk. It was a hectic wk as its near month end and at the same time, quarterly closing..

But thanks to my senior who helped to clear bulk of my work the past 2 wks, the pile of work I faced when I returned to office wasnt as tall as I tot..Though there are still things waiting for me to clear, I knew he had tried his best to clear the more urgent ones..Realli appreciate his kind gestures, this is wat u called team work where I will not find in my previous company.Had I still been with my old company, I think I will take another 2 wks of bed rest leave when I go bak and see the amount of work awaiting me..

As mentioned, it had been a hectic work, work is stress with payday coming up and I am in charge of the various vessel's payroll..FC had passed some of the quarterly closing reports for me to investigate and close, and I took over more tasks as previously agreed so that she can have a back up shd the person suddenly decides to leave our company.

Its tough, but I managed to get thru the wk..Keep telling myself to relax abit as I do not want to stress out BB..Did see spotting on the 2nd day I went bak, but its a bit onli, not so much to trigger the panic button. I tried not to work ard so much and my nice colleagues will collect my print outs for me whenever they can...Realli blessed to be working along with them and having their understanding on my current situation..

Also, I get tired out very easily after work, nodding off at 9pm some nights..Gyne had aso advised me to go easy and try to have as much rest as possible. I am trying my best to maintain my well being for the sake of BB..

As I progressed towards 2nd trimester, I do hope everything will gets better as wat fwens ard me are telling me as they term this as "Honeymoon" trimester..But I still get the nausea feeling every now and then, especially when certain smell which is not to BB's liking..

Will be going for a detail scan on monday followed by a blood test. Hopefully, all turns out fine and all will be well from now on as we eagerly await the arrival of our bundle of love...At this point now, I cannot help but wonder whether BB is gonna be a prince or princess. Regardless of the gender, as long as BB is healthy, I will be most grateful to god.

13 yrs on...

Dear Ah Ma,

In a blink of eyes, this is the 13th year tat you left us. It seems like you neber realli left us..

This year, we have a lot of good news, how great it will be if you are still here with us..

Early this year, mummy, piggy bro, Jie & I made a trip to Macau & Hong Kong. Liang Liang was unable to join us due to work commitments, and thus we went on our own. I still remembered that our 1st Bossini's t-shirts were brought by you years back when you visited HK while I was in Primary 2. You have brought 3 identical t-shirts but in different colours for us.

It was our favourite outfit back then and mummy will let us wear it while on outings so as to look nice in photos.It was the fondest memory we have about Hong Kong at tat time..Going there this time with family, reminded us of you..

Remember years back, you keep encouraging the younger aunties and uncles to try for a dragon baby? Fast forward to 12 yrs later as we entered the dragon yr, it's my turn to get encouraged to for a dragon baby in memory of you as we know how much you will like to haf a dragon great-grand child. But you know Ah Ma, its stressful to be a dragon BB in Spore as there will be a baby boom and the rush for queues for sch will be madness, thus, I always gave up the idea of having a dragon BB much to the dismay of many.

But dunno whether it is you who is watching all these and decide that I should be blessed with a dragon BB that I got pregnant during May and BB will be born in early 2013 b4 CNY. Technically, it makes the BB a dragon BB still as it is still not CNY yet.

Mummy was overjoyed when she hear the news, I guess she finally got her wish to be promoted to granny and to make things sweeter, its a dragon BB as per your wishes...Mummy believes that somewhere, you are watching over me and made these possible :)

Recently, I am facing a few health problems with this pregnancy and had been put on 2wks MC. If you are watching over me now somewhere, please bless me with a healthy BB and have a smooth delivery. I know you will cuz this will be your great-grandchild.

Liang Liang is also moving to another phase of his life, having started work last Oct as trainee engineer, he is currently waiting to finish his last yr of degree studies...Also, he had got a new gf and is now planning to settle down by next yr. I can imagine ur pride if you are still ard as he is your favourite grandson.

He had grown up quite alot, proved to be helpful ard the hse, at least I can finally stop worrying about him as he prepares to settle down, the worrying part will be passed to his future spouse :)

Piggy bro is also doing well in his career, having get posted to Macau on & off for stints, he is njoying the flying ard part. The only thing is, mummy worry about him being alone there, but as he goes on the next trip in Aug, I guess mummy will be too busy worrying about me then to concentrate on him. Ah Ma, please look after him there if you are watching over us..

Mummy is the most busy among all, this yr, as she prepares for grandmotherhood, she shelf all travelling plans, I think the nearest 1 she have is next Sept where she & piggy bro is planning to go to US..US, Ah ma, did you rememeber that you brought my 1st pair of Nike from there when you went there in 1995?  I still have the Minnie Mouse purse you brought frm Disney land for me:)

As the year moves on, and every 1 gets busy with their life, I know we will miss you more during July as your death anniversary gets nearer. Do take care of yourself Ah ma, with da jiu and Ah gong there, and when I next pen this entry next yr this time, your dragon great-grandchild will be seating beside me playing away. I miss you alot Ah Ma, how I wish you were here to witness this great milestone of my life, but I noe you had neber left us. I noe you are watching over us somewhere up there...

With lots of Love,

Your eldest grand-daughter, Ah Le...

Early morning happiness..

Woke up this morning to Didi's msg informing me of his new job and chatted abit on his soon to be born son..So happie for him, as I knew they both were hoping for a child the last time I chatted with his wife..

Turns out, his child will get a cousin soon aso, hehe and together, we announced the great news to our grp of kakis..

Every 1 was excited, with 2 new members joining us soon..We decided to have a gathering b4 Aud's delivery to celebrate the great news and of cuz in the coming mths, didi and his wife is gonna be so busy with their junior..

Now now, I onli need to get well enuff to host the gathering, which I am confident of doing so :)

Bad scare 2...

Went back to work on mon, everything seems fine on that day, appetite is aso good. I tot things will be good from now..

But boy, how wrong I was, woke up on tue 5am to bad scare no. 2..Same condition as 1st time..But with 1st time experience, I knew better not to panic and try to calm myself down.

Didnt want to wake hubs up as there is nothing we can do at 5am, thus I went bak to bed, trying to slp to no avail. Instead, I concentrate on my breathing and try to stay calm. It did work, but still I didnt manage to fall aslp.

I waited till 7.10am which is hubs' waking up time before telling him the condition, both of us took UL immediately to make a trip down to doc, hopin to confirm all is fine..

All is fine it seems and we even got a sweet surprise which makes our day though doc still didnt manage to pin point wat is wrong with me tat the condition keep coming bak...

Instead, she send me home with 4 days of MC and told me rest is all I need at this stage, hoping to stablise the current situation..

I am abit worried as 2mths into my new job, I took 2wks of consecutive MC..Luckily, they were understanding towards my condition...I pray tat, after all these resting all will be well from now on as I prepare to enter another stage...

Bad scare...

Had a beri bad scare on tuesday nite which send me into Panic mode..As Mr Love is still doing OT, I decided to call mummy. She too, was badly scared by my sobbing voice over the phone, after all, I dropped crying ever since secondary sch days, maybe except when I am beri scared...

She immediately calmed me down and offered to come to my hse and bring me to the doc...While waiting for her, I was comtemplating whether to call Mr Love at work. I would nt want to scare him but he deserves to noe the situation..In the end, I still called him, nt after calming myself down in order nt to scare him too much..

I guess he can feel the shiver in my voice and thus dropped every thing and came hm to acc me to the doc..After check up, doc assured me that everything looks fine, though I would need to monitor my condition and report bak to the hospital shd the condition arises again..

One cannot imagine my relieve when it is told to me that every thing seems normal.I started crying again but managed to stop soon..Was given few days of rest in hope that my condition will improve.

I did not dare to move about for the past few days and were confined to my bed or sofa...Luckily mummy need not need to work for the few days and she came by to check on me and prepared home cooked food for me..I try to rest as much as possible, to the extend of sleepin up to 16hrs a day..

Hopefully all is fine now when I returned to work on mon and from now on, everything will be smooth.. I am reminded by this incident not to take things for granted and shall keep myself in check every now and then..

Raging hormones..

Not sure whether my hormones are acting up or I am just plain whiny..Recently, a little is all it takes to make my tears flowing..

For instance, watched a documentary on children who requires reconstruction surgery during lunch and for no reasons, I started to tear, I had previously watched this show b4, though touched, but I did not tear at tat time...

Another instance is recently while toking to Mr Love, I felt beri sensitive in our conversations and sometimes when I will suddenly feel beri angry towards him and then beri upset and will start crying again..Its not those beri howling, juz sobbing as though as I am beri wronged..hehhe..

Dun ask me why I behave this way, I am aso not sure. Even Mr Love is trying to cope with my sudden change, for I am not an unreasonable woman by nature and beri seldom, I shed tears becuz of small issue...

I blame all these on my raging hormones, heheh and hopefully things will get better as we advance thru the stages..