My hysterosalpingography test

Now that we have successfully conceived the twinnies, I thought I should pen down on what we believed did help when ttc- that is the HSG that I went through right before the twinnies came along.

Kkh scheduled me for a HSG test in mid Jun as they need to rule out blocked tubes before I can start the oral hormones medication. The test is supposed to be done during the follicular phase of the cycle and I'm supposed to call on the very 1st day of my cycle for an appointment.

Though they did briefly explained the procedure during 1 clinic session, I didn't know what to expect on the actual day.

The nurse called me up 1 day prior to me test to remind me of the appointment and it was only then I remembered to ask whether pain relief will be administrated to me. Nope, I was told to take 2panadols if I'm afraid of pain but it is not mandatory.

So the garang me went for the procedure without any pain killers though I have little pain tolerance.

Mummy was with me on that day to help look after my bag and it was a day procedure.

Was given the 1st slot but there was a little girl who came in as emergency case and took up the OT. 

So my case was pushed back to an hour later. Not that I mind since mine is juz a normal procedure.

Was told to change into a hospital gown taking out all undies and sat in the area feeling naked though I'm quite well covered by the big piece of gown.

At 10am, I was called into the OT. Its not the normal scary looking kind. A smaller version I would say. Was sitting on the edge of the bed as instructed and swinging my legs while humming something to come my nerves.

A nurse came in to make me lie in the correct position then came the doctor who look younger than I am. Glup.

The funny thing is he seems a bit flustered like it's his 1st time doing the procedure. Fumbled with his words when he starts to wipe me with antiseptic and I start to feel unsure of his skills by now.

Anyway the procedure was similar to a pap smear where the doc will insert a catherter into your cervix via vaginal then pump a contrast(dye) into it while waiting for it to flow through the fallopian tubes and finally filling your uterus cavity and if the tubes are not blocked.

I'm not going to lie here but once the contrast make its way into my body, it hurts like hell. Its much more painful than period cramps and I was dying to kick the doc. While waiting for the contrast to flow, they took xrays of the flow to determine whether my tubes are blocked or not and also shape of my uterus.

Then the procedure is done but they kept me in the observation room to see whether I would have adverse reaction towards the contrast. I even served as a translator there between a Filipino nurse and a Chinese lady while waiting for green light to go off.

Pain had subside by then and I got the green light to go home. I read somewhere that if my tubes are a little block, this procedure might just help to flush it and also there are mentions of higher pregnancy chance after this procedure in some of the articles I read online.

Went lunch with mummy after that and then the cramping got worse. It was so bad that I couldn't stand up straight to walk. Cab home in the end and pop 2 panadols hoping to curb the pain.

By night time, the pain did not go away totally though not as painful as initially. Google and read that there will only be pain if my tubes are blocked and that got me worrying. My results will only be out in a month's time and I didn't know what will be the recommended course of action should my tubes be blocked.

Turns out, I did not have to worry about the blocked tubes since results came back good. Clearing me of any blockage and also showing a normal uterus shape.

In fact if anything, I believe this procedure did help in my ovulation which is 2 days after the procedure and we conceived the very same month. Prior to that, I am still suffering from inconsistent ovulation cycles.

It was a painful procedure alright. But I think it's worth to give it a shot since it did help me to conceive. Even not, it also helps to rule out the possibility of blocked tubes or abnormal uterus shape that would allow the doc go start me on the fertility treatments they had planned.

Like mother like daughter

I tot I am able to be more indifferent towards my younger brother since he shifted out while dating his current wife and practically cut communication with us except for an occasional meet up during special occasion.

Gotten use to seeing him for a few times a yr after he got hitch. And even when he learnt about my pregnancy, never once I heard from him though he did ask mummy about me during his occasional calls.

Actually it was hurtful since I thought I was closer to him than to the piggy brother but yet my piggy brother will still bother to text me on n off even I did not see him often too.

Was sending mummy and piggy brother off for their trip last Wed and mentioned to my elder bro how my sons have not heard their younger Ah Ku voice yet and dunno when they will get to hear..

But alas, god works in such magical way that mummy found out this rascal is also due to fly off to Bkk on the same night and is on his way to airport. So she told me to call him while waiting for Mr Love to pick me up. Luckily, he agreed to have dinner together.

I thought I will be resentful towards him after not seeing or hearing from him for months. But I was wrong. In fact, it warms my heart to just see him strolling into the food joint looking like ah pek, not like a processional going for outstation trip.

It feels good to be able to have a good talk with him with his latest updates. And he was the last one in my close circle to realised I'm carrying twin boys. How nice. The news was at least a month's old. Haha.

After we part ways, I told Mr Love that I just realised I just like mummy. Though angry with him for partially abandoning the family, we still yearn to see him and hear from him.

It certainly made my day to be able to catch up with him and also let my twins hear their younger uncle voice.

I do hope that his life will be smooth for there is nothing more a sister can wished for her brother. And of course to stay in touch more often so that we will not become strangers in the near future when life is gonna get busier for us.

Announcing the BIG news

Hello there, Happy Mid Autumn Festival to all. Its been quite a while since I last updated but I had a very good reason for the disappearance.

I've successfully conceived!! Not 1 but 2 babies!!! Cannot describe how wonderful this is to us. And before anyone asks, yes there. is history of twins on my side. I've got fraternal twin cousins-a boy & a girl and our babies are conceived naturally.

We found out my pregnancy on week 5 n it was purely based on my instinct since I'm gonna for toning zumba that very day, I decided to take the test early morning juz to be safe.

Was still slply while waiting for the results but I broke down when the 2 lines showed up clearly (not even faint) on the kit. We waited 3 long years for this day and all I did is to cry. Haha

Since it was bestie's bday, I decided to let her know the news as a pressie to her. Hehe not even Mr Love know yet and she got to share the joy with me for 5mins b4 it's Mr Love's wake up time.

Mr Love cannot comprehend why I was so excited in waking him up this morning but let out a "Finally" when the news finally sinks in. Ok,now you know how hard we tried. Haha.

Mummy was the next to be let known of the news and as usual she act cool, like she expected it and it is not exciting. But I know deep down she is even more excited than us cause subsequently, she called twice to remind me what to take note from now.

Mr Love decided that we shall keep a low profile this time and told no one else after this. Not even his family.

Was scheduled to collect my HSG results and Mr Love's sperm results 2days later. The doc's reaction was epic when I told him I was pregnant after he patiently explained our results to me. He only stop short of hugging me when I told him the good news. He recommended a senior gynae to me and help me to make an appointment for 1st scan on wk7. So there you are, I decided to stick with KKH this time round since I had promised mummy earlier and also I had been having checkups here for the past 3years.

Wk 7 was like a super long way away. I was paranoid about my baby well being. Didn't even know it was twins then. I literally stop all other activities except to go work. Weekend was spending lying on sofa.

I get uptight every time I feel the discharge, rushing to toilet to see whether it's blood or not. I get afraid of peeing for fear of seeing blood. I cannot even begin to put into words how much I hope this pregnancy would work out and I will finally get to hold my child.

Wk 7 came and because of work commitments, Mr Love and mummy couldn't go with me. Was abit scared of going alone but nevertheless I went on bravely. Teared up abit when the doc told me that he confirmed my pregnancy and showed me the little blip in my tummy. I was sent home with folic acids and told to report back on wk12.

Morning sickness or whole days sickness start to set in by now and I will vomit out a mouthful of food after every meal. Not too pleasant but itz an indication that my baby is growing and so I'm very willing to go thru it. I started to get sore gums that night. Sometimes so painful that I juz couldnt slp. Nothing I do will make it go away. Suffered 3wks of this. And every night I would chant the name of Goddess of Mercy to make myself calm down and sleep. Its my way of praying for protection from Goddess of Mercy for my child.

On a morning in wk9, I experienced some pain in my pelvis area and was alarmed. It was normal in the initial weeks but not now. Called gynae who advised me to make a trip to a&e for a check up. 

My heart was thumping in taxi all the way to the hospital and on top of it, I had cleverly asked Mr Love not to come down since there will be docs n nurses there and its a busy day for him. But I can feel his anxiety over the messages.

When the doc on duty did a vaginal scan for me, he asked what did my gynae told me on the previous visit. Nothing special I said and then he turned the screen around to show me the 2 babies in my uterus. I was told that I'm carrying twins. Again I cried. This must be the hormones acting up since I don't cry that often. 

The pain was due to expanding uterus for my babies and I was given some hormones pills to support the twin pregnancy and was sent home. Called Mr Love immediately after I came out from consultation and he was practically screaming with joy. Twins. It is juz so surreal.

Told mum who was in Malaysia to help us pray to Goddess of Mercy since it was her birthday on that day. She got so happy that she went to tip the coach driver who drove her to JB. Muhaha.

And so, I was told to report to KKH ADC on wk 12 for my Oscar scan and also some blood test prior to that. 

Its another 3wks of waiting b4 seeing my babies and I was a nervous wreck. Never mind the morning sickness was killing my appetite, the constant tiredness was draining my energy away and I sleep everyday at 9pm but will wake up at 3am for a toilet break b4 trying to sleep back. Even mummy noticed that I am out of energy since the calls are always short and I did not ask her out for dinners anymore. 

Mr Love on the other hand,went all out to make me as comfortable as possible. Relieving whatever household duties I have and minimize weekend activity for fear that I get too tired. I can wake up at 9am for breakie and go back to sleep till 2pm b4 I'm due for a snack and then sleep till dinner time. Then will hit the sack at 9pm again. All the sleeping couldn't replenish my energy though I'm practically doing nothing. Muhaha. But I'm blessed with a good hubby who did not once complaint about my laziness and still try to think of what to cook for us on weekend to ensure that we are having the right nutrients. He took up all the house work willing and never once complaint. For these, I know I'm blessed :)

Mr Love was able to take leave for the wk12 scan and for the 1st time, he sees our babies live on the screen. I can see him looking intently at the screen and 1 of the twins start waving at us. It was a magical moment and I knew Mr Love was touched.

Results came back looking good but we were told that I'm carrying MC twins which means they are identical twins sharing a placenta. It's considered a more high risk pregnancy than other twins pregnancies. We were told go go back every fortnightly after wk16 to monitor my babies well being.

I was scared stiff after hearing these but I knew I had to be strong for my babies whom came to us after such a long wait. Tried to maintained a positive mind set though sometimes I will secretly worry a bit.

I talk to my babies every night during shower time to encourage them to share their food and grow well together so that Mr Love and I can get to welcome them into the world where we have so much to share and teach them. Everyday without fail I will give them their prep talk. Haha. Mr Love on the other hand is tasked to kiss them on my belly b4 bedtime to let them feel his love.

Wk 16 scan came and we cleared the 1st hurdle. My heart was already in the mouth b4 the scan and I can hear and feel my heartbeat clearly while waiting for the scan. Need to learn to relax more so that my babies would not be kan cheong spiders next time.Haha.

We are hitting wk17 today as I typed this post and on this very special day of family reunion I would like to share this good news here.

Pray for us to have a smooth pregnancy and my babies will be born healthy and safe for there is nothing more I could ask for at this time.