I recently confessed to mummy on my body condition of why we couldn't conceived despite trying hard. She was calm when she heard the news but was nevertheless worried.
Reason for not telling her first hand is because I learnt of my condition just when she was about to go on her USA holiday, didn't want to dampen her mood and therefore kept it under wrap till one day I couldn't hold back anymore.
She was naturally upset that I kept it from her but couldn't do anything about it. She insist to go with me on the follow up checkups but I refused since I don't want her to know too much. Gave her a brief outline only and she was overly worried, just don't wanna scared her any further.
Anyways since the doctor just confirmed the polyps in my uterus and gave me a month to consider whether to undergo surgery, I naturally had to tell mummy truthfully. What I didn't expect is, she went around asking nearly everyone on what to do and hence I think the whole world knew of my condition.
It didn't make things easier to be frank since she would give me whatever solutions she hear from anyone who is trying to help. Too much information is not necessary a good thing especially when I am still reeling from the aftermath of the conclusion and is in a mess of not knowing what to do yet.
She would recommend this TCM today and later another tomorrow as she heard so and so had gone to the other TCM with the same condition and was healed without going for any surgery. I knew she is concerned but many a times I need to bite my tongue to hold back my words so that I would not hurt her.
Truth is, I need sometime to think of what to do and not what others had done. I am used to making my own decision and not follow others blindly. There might thousand and one way of tackling my current condition but I think to analyze and see which way I wanna take. Sometimes, I just feel that she is imposing her thinking onto me.
Nevertheless, since she is so against me going for surgery (which I had initially decided to) I decided to heed her advice to visit a TCM with her sitting in the consultation so that I am not able to hide any thing that the doctor said. Muhaha nice move since I blocked her from going to KKH with me.
I now will have to swallow 8pills a time, 3times a day and monitor myself whether there are any side effects from the med. This hopefully can expel the polyps inside me naturally. So the conclusion now is I will hold off the surgery for 3 months and do a scan to confirm if the polyps are still there then only we will know if the TCM works on me.
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