Babies are Angels

We hit 20weeks today and is on the halfway mark. Pretty exciting I should say that in less than 5months, I will be able to hold my boys. I'm praying had that they would grow healthy inside me till 37weeks where they will be full term babies.

Started to take belly photos from 18weeks but I couldn't really see much difference over these 3weeks. That being said, I do hope that the boys' weight gain are on track since I am eating like a pig these days. And I hope the weight gain are on babies not me..haha.

I can feel their kicks more often now and sometimes when I am hungry, angry or they hear some pop songs. Haha. Just the other night when Mr Love is tapping on my tummy talking to them, one of the boys tapped/kicked right back at the same spot though daddy cannot feel him but mummy can. That's the beauty of being a mother carrying her child.

Mr Love's army friend visited 2weeks ago to check on our well being since learning about my pregnancy and we were on the topic on how babies have this ability to forge closer ties to people.

For instance, my piggy bro always goes back to Malaysia to spend his CNY, leaving us here to spend with dad. For years, no matter what we say, he refused to stay back to celebrate with us. But with the twins' expected arrival near CNY, he volunteered to stay back so that he could spend time with the kiddos when they are born. Mummy was so happy with his decision.

When the twins' presence was announced on FB, I received tons of well wishes, personal messages from friends whom I have not contacted in ages. Some told me their good news too when they haven announced publicly. 

Some told me that they feel happy for me that we finally got our own blessings. Some offered to pass me their boy's hand me down or whatever they thought I could use since we will be needing double of everything. Even Mr Love's colleagues were offering hand me down or information they thought we could use.

We felt so love and blessed with all the well wishes.

It also makes me think back on the conversation we had that babies are angels sent by god and each and every one of them will bring love, happiness and joy to the household they are sent to. How true it is. Mummy is already getting ready for their arrival and all she can think of nowadays are the boys.

Looking forward as we progress with my pregnancy and of course hoping that my boys will grow healthy as we go along.

Hand me downs

Mr Love n I was in this topic the other day and I was amazed that this good life chap do not need wear hand me downs during his younger days even though he have a brother nt much older than him. 

In fact he told me that my mil brought clothes from OG or jeans from 2nd chance for them =_=".

On the other hand, I'm the queen of 2nd hand goods. Be it clothes, toys, text books or whatever I need during my younger days. I dun mind using 2nd hand items. In fact I've got like at least 2 copies of textbook during my senior secondary school years becuz i go around collecting 2nd hand from seniors muhaha. Mummy never had to worry about buying my textbooks which is quite a substantial amount.

Even till now, if some one pass along some thing I can wear and like, I will still take.

So the whole point now is to convince Mr Love to allow the twinnies to wear 2nd hand clothes since I am starting to ask friends for them.  With twinnies on the way, the expenses will double and of course we should save on whatever we can.

Letting them wear 2nd hand clothes doesn't mean I don't love them enough to spend monies on them. It's also part of teaching them to be frugal. That being said, we did buy some new clothes for their home returning day and also full mth. Its juz that I didn't buy that much as other 1st time mummy would. Hehe Its also pretty difficult to control my shopping desires kk?

So friends reading my post, if you have any baby things to bless my twinnies, do give me a ring kk? I will be more than happy to take from you:)

At 18 wks

Am 18wks along and I am starting to feel the twinnies movements.

Wasn't sure initially since I tot its my stomach movements but hey since when my stomach will kick me when I'm sh***ing? Haha yes. Trying to go to the toilet when I felt kicks on the left side. Maybe twin A isnt too happy when me using too much force. Gotta soothe my tummy and told him that mummy needs to clear her bowels for more food space for them and he stopped! Haha.

Then the right twinnie whom sonographer always refer to as twin B aka the more active 1 is like Fandi Ahmad in training. I can feel his kicks and many a times its a tad painful.

There was this 1 night that both of them start changing their positions and I can literally feel their limbs joint thru my tummy walls and quickly ask Mr Love to touch them b4 they decided to change position. I knew he felt amazed cuz he juz sat there stoning after that.

The next night, he tried to listen to them 'eating'after I had my dinner. Trying to see whtether they enjoy his cooking or not. Haha of cuz he heard nothing though he kept asking them for some sort of an answer.

I then realised how enthu he is about towards our twinnies. He was never an expressive man but he now, every little thing he got curious becuz of them. He start taking pointers from his colleagues on preganancy and parenting then come home and share with me. Everything seems new to him. It warms my heart to know that how much he looks forward to the twinnies arrival :)

18wk scan was cleared on Mon(5/10) and the twinnies are both on my left side facing each other.Haha Twin B decided that he was too bored and wanted to play with his bro. Told you he's the active twin.

They are both of good size so far with a 9% difference. I hope things will keep up this way till their birth and I will be able to hold them at least till full term for a more healthier them.

Next scan will be the 20th wk detail scan which we are excited to see their features!! Already can see 1 twin having my pouty lips. Haha think both will have since they are identical twins.

Till then, hope we 3 will be well and healthy.

It's been 3 years

Dear XB,

It's been 3 years since you left us but it feels like I juz lost you not long ago.

Sorry for the late letter this year since mummy is preggies with your didis but please do not think that you are forgotten in mummy and daddy's heart.

In fact, we arranged to have a chanting ritual for you during the 7th month way back in June. It's only because of mummy being preggies and therefore couldn't visit you at the temple. But Ah Ma did brought quite a bunch of sweets n treats for you didn't she?

You know you are the 1st person mummy thought of when I found out my pregnancy? I believed that you had watched over us wherever you are. I even compared your didi's ultrasound scan with yours during the same gestation weeks, kept the photos together.

I want you to know that even in future when your didis come into this world, you will always be mummy's 1st child though I never got a chance to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. I will also let your didis know that they had a brave elder brother who fought bravely during the last weeks and never once gave up. For that, mummy is proud of you:)

Please watch over your didis XB and blessed them to grow healthily. Meanwhile mummy hope someday you will find a good family to be born into and will live happily though I will still be thinking of you.

Love you lots,

Mummy and Daddy