I must be mad..

Had a dream this morning that feels so real yet I know it is not.

I dreamt that I've got a positive for the pregnancy kit when I did it in the morning when I woke up.

But when I woke up from the dream, I was still lying in my bed.

The dream seems so real, can still feel the happiness of it but then when I woke up, it strikes me that it is juz a dream.

Am I too anxious? Or this is a sign? I dunno. Afterall, we have been trying hard ever since our loss and there is no news yet.

At 1st, we are still taking it easy but as time passes, I began to worry slightly.

Doc did mentioned 6mths after miscarriage will be ideal to conceive again.

10mths had past oredi. I am worried that we have missed the golden period.

The 1 yr of my miscarriage is coming up, perhaps it makes me feel more for my lost child.

I dunno how long more can I stay sane.

This is so nerve wrecking.