Last Saturday, Mr Love and I made a trip to the temple where we paid for 7th month praying for Xiaobao. Mummy said she had made a trip down earlier the week and therefore we went on our own. The minute I stepped into the temple, my tears went free flow. No amount of self control can stopped my tears. 2 years on, I still missed him like the 1st day I lost him.
Today I went for my follow up checkup and was hit with more bad news.
2 growths or polyps are found in my womb and it wasn't there when I did the last scan. Doc say I had the option of going for day surgery to remove it or to leave it and observe whether it goes away. But if it gets bigger, I would definitely need to remove it and get the growth tested.
The follicles that was present in my ovaries are posting a problem to me and doc suspected that I am suffering from PCOS, a condition that will results in irregular menses which is consistent with my condition now. It is also one of the causes that results in difficulty to conceive. I would need to go for further blood test to confirm if I am indeed suffering from this and then only the doc can decide next course of treatment for me.
The news hit me hard, real hard. We have been trying diligently to conceive and yet it is fruitless efforts due to my body conditions. I seriously dunno how more longer I can hold on and follow through the treatments. I dreaded the time that I need to go for the checkup and is afraid of the news I need to face.
Depression is like setting in and I feel like giving up and leave things to god. But I knew that treatment is necessary and I shouldn't run away from facing it.
But just how long more can I hold up?
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