Lately my surroundings have been blessed by happy news. One by one, friends got preggies successfully.
While I am happy for them, I couldn't help to be reminded that we are still waiting for ours since lost of Xiao Bao 3 years ago.
Frankly speaking, the pain is still raw.
These 3 years, we did all we can to try conceive. I ate countless of Chinese medication, went for endless tests and scanning. Even took to praying.
Nothing seems to work.
Month after month we were disappointed.
Especially me who felt more upset since baby was within my body.
I questioned myself on where went wrong. Even doctors couldn't give me a definite answer.
Sometimes, I am on the verge of giving up. I really don't know when we will be blessed again though a lot around me keep telling me that there are still chances.
Many a times, I had to depend on sheer determination to get through, banking on the thoughts that if I follow doctor's instruction diligently my turn will come eventually.
But there are days where I would slip into minor depression and wonder when will be the day.
Just who can tell me when will be my turn?
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