Eat, Love, Play and be merry

Results of my checkup came back and doc told me due to abnormal hormonal changes,  my ovulation is not normal and thus lower the chances of pregnancy.

I was devastated. Many had told me that it's easier to get pregnant after a miscarriage and here I am with my chances lowered.

Nothing can be done except to wait for it to stabilize, doc did suggest not to stress myself too much too.

Truth to be told, I cried myself to slp the very night, no words can describe the blow I have been dealt with. My eyes were so puffy the next day that my colleague commented upon seeing me.

But life have to go on isn't it? Throw a lemon at you,  u squeeze out the juice n drink though I dislike sour taste. 

As much as I want to wallow in self pity, I decided to take a step back and stop obsessed with trying for baby. Perhaps it's god's way of telling me to let go.

Trying my best to find things to occupy my time and thinking. Bestie mentioned that cooking can destress and I agreed so. Before bedtime,  I would do some reading or watch part of running man to make myself so tired that I would fall asleep immediately after touching my pillow.

However, things are easier said than done. Sometimes I wonder whether I am trying too hard or not.

Eat, Love,  Play and be merry,  when can I master the art of it?