New deco

Found this off G-market, been toying with the idea of buying but neber got ard doing it while I was preggies as mummy say cannot anyhow stick things during preggies..After the miscarriage, I forgot bout this product till recently, I saw the offer for it and went ahead to buy not 1 but 3 stickers to decorate my beri empty looking walls.

Living room:

I have a pretty huge living room by today's standard and the walls are quite empty even with my 2 Mickey jigsaw, neber have the time or mood to complete the other 3  but then still cannot take up all the empty spaces. So I decided to paste some of the deco on the wall behind the sofa, which I initally wanted to apply a layer of those special wall paper.

The onli thing that stops me is the pricing.1.8K for 1 wall onli.OMG. Daylight robbery, I figured that I can think of other ways to deco the wall. Hehe this time, I brough a set of flowers with butterflies/insects sticker to paste on the wall. Complete with the pink painting I requested during renovations, it look like spring all year round now in my living room. Very girlish is hubs' comments but then he cannot do anyting bout it. I did wanted to paste my fav snow flakes but on 2nd tots it will onli suits the up coming X-mas and after which will makes it look like over-due deco, thus brought this flowery design.

Its Spring time all year round!!!!

 Kitchen door:

My kitchen has a glass door living room and kitchen, though under use, I am afraid 1 day, some 1 might walked straight into it without realising the door is pull out. The problem with glass door is, it is transparent.
Been searching for someting to paste on the door to make it more visible, even though you are sleeply. I do not want those aninmals prints/flowers or wat so ever themes. I wan something associated with food since this is the doorway to kitchen.

Found the perfect stickers this time with the various breads/muffins/coffees design as though as you are entering a cafe. This is the closest to the food theme I can find. But then application of these stickers are a killer man.

Unlike the previous flowers theme, these sticker had onli the outline of the items, making them flimsy. Thus during application, many a times, I need to pull out the stickers to re-apply to get the correct shape. Then again, I am afraid while pulling them out, I would tear up the stickers accidentally. Thus I had a hard time gettng the various shapes rite. Spent a good 2 hrs doing these up.

The end product, makes me have a sense of accomplishment. 2hrs not wasted!!

Coffee, tea or me?

Study room:

Lastly, I brough a world map. Found it interesting, I had always like the world map and the onli thing now is to decide where to stick it on. Had too many empty walls tat is..

After discussion with hubs, we decided to stick it up in the study room. Makes more sense as the kids will be using this room for studies next time, thus having something educational in this room fits the image.heheh...
Am pretty happie with the outcome, now I stared at it whenever I study in the room. hur hur..

Where is Singapore?

Hubs make me promised not to buy any more of the stickers as for now as he is afraid I would turn our hse in to a kindergarden look alike with all the pasting.

Okie, I shall stop of the time being as there are no more discounts oredi..Hehe if I ever see the discounts again, there is no promise what I will or will not do...:)

Of lions and lioness

While on our way home, we were toking bout some animals topic and hubs suddenly got reminded by a joke made by me thousands of years ago and started teasing me.

It started with an innocent trip to the zoo, back when I still have access to free zoo passes, it used to be 1 of our fav dating place..There was this once, while at the lion enclosure, hubs found me squatting down there trying hard to peep under the lions who were walking about.

Puzzled, he asked me wat I was doing, and I replied I was trying to differentiate between the male and female. He then started luffing so hard that he nearly rolled on the floor. In between his laughters, he asked me whether had I not learnt in school that the lion is distinguishable by its mane while lioness do not have it?

I pondered hard..Seriously I tink I didnt pick this up from sch, neither did mummy tell me or I read frm anywhere else. How was I to know?

Today, he went 1 step further to probe :

He asked me, den why do I think there are lions with mane and some without? So I told him, I just assume some have more hair, others do not, why am I suppose to tink so much of the hair on the lion's head?

"So you mean some have hair, others are just customers of Bejing 101?" he asked again..

"Ya la, something like tat lo" I replied.

"Lucky for you that you've got me telling you this GK, else next time your children will suffer" he went on

"How so?"

Since he was so high on this subject, he went on to act out a scenario, assuming that I had taught our kid the wrong thing, 1 fine day the kid went n told his fwen bout what I taught him..

Kid saying to his fwens " But my mummy says can differentiate lions by lookin under them to see their reproductive organs"

Kid's Fwen:" You mean you dunno lion have mane while lioness dun?"

Kids" My mummy neber teach me wat.."

Kid's fwen started to luff at him.

Kid came running home tell me that its all my fault that he got teased in sch for not knowing lions have mane and he tot they just have more hair than the other lions.

He got so happie that this tot that he keep luffin at me on the way home, all the way making those noisy sound simitating a kid saying " my mummy neber teach me wat"

Then suddenly he stopped and look at me, "eh, you think your mummy knows about this or not? did you asked her before? scarily she aso dunno..."

Ok lo, since you so happie rite? Wait till I go ask my mummy infront of you, see whether you can luff so happily or not..HMMMFFFFFFFFFFF.......

Simple fare

Most will know by now that hubs is a much better cook den I though we both took home econs bak in sec sch...Eh, I tink mine is home econs, u noe the mandatory subject in sec 1& 2? I remember clownin in class, making my partner cook while I do clean up, chopping, reading instructions out loud etc.. I was however, especially good with handicraft like cross stitch, t-shirt designing...Nah..tat was years AGO....

Hub on the other hand, took a much sophisticated version of home econs known as Food & Nutrition in upper secondart years (luckily my sch did not have this option) and he did real cooking..Unlike me clowning ard in class, he told me he scored a decent B4 in the subject..Mine home econs is A1 if its of any consolation..(theory good, teacher did taste the food I cooked) hehhe...

Anyways, coming back to present, my hubs is the cook of the house, master of the kitchen while I happily pluck myself on the sofa waitin for food to be serve than helping to clear the table b4 going bak to the sofa again.heee.. All the while, things pretty much remains the same, till he got sick..

He was so weak that he cannot move much and of cuz had no appetite. Sick aso muz eat rite? Especially he have got a glutton wife...So I took the chance and told him that I will cook for a change. For an instance, he have me the "will you burn down my kitchen"look. Hey!!! I did some cooking b4 kk? Back when the hse was not renovated yet..没良心。。He forgot bout it le!!

I had not planned to cook any thing complicated, since he is sick. So, we sticked to porridge, steam cod fish, fried egg with sliver fish and my favourite 豆苗。。。Seriously I can do better, but I am just lazy and since he is wayyyyyyy better than me, why show off infront of the master?

I stick to the simple fare for a change, whahaha and satisfies my craving for a porridage and steam cod fish..Something he will not take if not for being sick..hehehe

Then on fri, I took leave to stay at home to mug, and being the lazy bum, I raid my fridge for anything that I can cook for lunch. The best thing bout having the hse back is, I can store lots of food in my fridge and can open and see what I wannna cook as n when I feel like it..Feels so damn good.

Found pork and sichuan veggie and decided to anyhow stir fry them..heheh Cooked porridge again and then lastly decided to fried an egg with sliver baits...Just like tat lunch is serve within 10mins...Such simple fare is the most suitable for lazy plp like me on lazy days where I juz wanna fill my tummy... 

 

Lack of updates #1651561

Weeeewww...Oct is over, I am so looking forward to my bonus which is coming in Jan 13..

Okie, a short post is all I can do now though I have a million things to update.

Been sick again (wats new), went for a poly classmate's weddin last nite with my sisters and met those who I dun wanna meet. Not exactly friendly (story on another day) but am glad to see my sistas and managed to arranged a gathering there...heheh

Been realli busy with work and hse and shopping (though neber buy anything)..

Gotta go off now as I am nursin a super bad sore throat which I tot it went away last wk..


Damn, why am I so weak? Shall be back with the posts when I am wel..till then

Happy wkend every 1!!

Its been a hetic wk, since its a shorter wk, thus was rushing to finish the month end thingys like crew payroll, NZ GST reporting (this month got 2 coy to work on), taking in as much invoices as I could to record the expenses..

Been thrown a bomb today by FPD dept, requesting me to help with the project costs reclassification. Hello boss? Its 4 vessels with 9 mths of chnages need to be look in, you think I no need time ar? Even with time, I aso need to do my daily things on top of this plus I have yet to close my quarterly reporting which my FC is patiently waiting for me to clear the shits tat are left by the previous company colleagues..

Okie, to be fair, you have given me time, its I juz dun haf the time..hur hur... Manage to clear 1 vessel and ask them to check on whether the costs are reasonable to them or not..Else, I would need to fine tune abit..
Whole yr dun check la, now found out the costs are allocate wrongly den request me to rectify in such a short period...NOT FAIR LA... But then again, fair or not, its my job, LL suck thumb continue to do..whahaha..

I tink the flu is finally gone, though still feel abit unwell, and my auntie came to visit oredi!! Neber was I so happie to receive this visitor whose presence is long overdue..Am super tired today but glad all is over. Am now listening to Kenny G's music and lighted up the aroma therapy to relax myself as I typed this entry.. Therapeutic music, therapeutic smell, doing my therapeutic activity, man, I'm glad this wk is over...

Oh, forgot to mention, met up with Hang Papa this wk for lunch. 1st time in history he sms me to go out for lunch (onli exception is during my bday), usually is me who have to contact him..Think he got a shock when he saw my miscarriage posts..But then, all is well now. Thank you for you concern, I owed you your bday lunch, wait till you get back frm China 1st....

Tmr, we will be going bak to msia, its been such a long time since I went bak. I couldnt bring myself to travel during the initial miscarriage phase, and after that need to go for weekly treatment at the chinese doc during sat, leaving no time for us to make a trip bak. Since tmr is a long wkend, muz as well go bak after such a long disapperance frm there. Mum and piggy bro is joinin us too.

Well, gonna go slp to prepare for the early wake up, reckon traffic might not be good..Oh god, please help to clear up the traffic while we cross the causeway...Happie wkend every 1...

Am sick again...

Remember my injection day nearly 2 wks ago? Its the flu vaccination with my colleagues told me they will inject virus into us and thus creating antibodies or something like tat. They say a portion of plp will fall sick after the injection. Initially, I seems to be okie, hur hur, starting from monday morning, I start to get runny nose.

The tap juz refuse to shut itself up. I lost count of how many tissues I used, tried taking spicy food during lunch with Hang papa but it did not help. The stupid running nose continued through the day and into Tuesday and my nose became sore from all the tissue rubbing..

I was feeling beri sick by then and my 2 lovely colleagues (aka my left/right speakers) can still luff at me. Saying that I have a slow reaction brain for it takes 1 wk for my brain to detect the virus injected into me and for it to act up. Damn. wat kind of colleagues I've got.

When they saw me having tears in my eyes due to the sneezing, they were so damn happie that they told me they will stop teasing me for an half hr for me to rest( that was half an hr b4 lunch). Teasing came bak straight at 12pm while preparing to go for lunch.

The worst part is, I am in a daze and did not have enuff brain cells to think of counter attack, juz saw there stonely for them to suan lo...

After lunch, I took a break and a sneaked a power nap while many were still out for lunch. It did not help. I hang on to it as I was scheduled to attend the appraisal training that I missed last thurs due to leave. This is the last training day and I die die aso need attend. I do not want 1 to 1 lessons from HR...

Then, I got lost while doing the NZ GST report. Numbers were swimming in front of me. Cannot concentrate at all but then still have to as a mistake will cause me to check thru the 500+ lines of entries that I have painstakingly entered.

Sometimes, I wonder whether it was rite to switch to accounts or not..On days that you cannot concentrate, its a diaster to be doing accounting job as a tiny mistake will sometimes meant you need to go thru the whole process to rectify it.

After the training session, I decided that I cannot take it anymore. If I sit there any longer, I am afraid that I might fainted there and then. So, asked for time off to go at 4pm to visit the doc. You know, sometimes when you want do someting and everything seems to go wrong? Its juz like tat for me. Realised doc is closed for the evening break and thus went home n took a yellow pill then K.O.

Didnt manage to go to the night session too as I overslp due to the effect of the pill. So, I went bak today to work feeling as shitty as yesterday. As much as I loved to stay in my bed and slp, I've got my dear NZ GST report waiting for me, where in turn my dear manager is waiting to check and submit to our dear NZ government by sunday. Essentially, tmr will be the last day of submission as the next 3 days are non working days in SG.

Luckily, I manage to finish the report at 1st try though I was wrapped up like as though I am in a winterland. Many colleagues who walked passed commented on my outfit today, den to realise I came in sick..hurhur..

Though had a tough day, but it is fulfilling to know I have 1 deadline less on my schedule. Working with deadlines does have its pros n cons. You can feel tat time passes faster as every wk I have deadlines to meet. Yet while trying to meet the deadlines, I sometimes have to have certain stress..

Well, the onli consolation now is the long wkend ahead and of cuz, pay is in early this month due to the holidays..yippeeeee......

Finally gone...

For the 1st time, we tried to have a guy tenant in our hse, since he seems to be quite well kept during viewing of room. But then the nightmare starts since the day he shifted in.

Both hubs & I were deem to be easy going persons but then we do haf our limit. More so, when our hse is newly renovated and we did spend ALL our savings on it, it is onli natural that we want to upkeep our things as long as we can.

The tenant in question, is a Filipino guy in his 40s who worked as an IT manager in 1 of the manufacturing plant here. He told us that he would not be home most of the time due to work and will be out during wkends as he want to roam about. Fair enuff, we tot, means he juz need a sleeping place.

The 1st warning sign came when after we strike a deal with him den I suddenly rememebered to ask him whether he is a smoker. He seems abit hesitant in answering this question but finally admit to being 1. We were then relucant to accept him, but he keep promising that he would not smoke in the house and will go dowastairs to smoke. Seeing that he is sincere in this,we decided to gave it a try.

On the day that he shifted in, we realised that he had alot of things, more than 1 room can fit. And he tried to cheat abit by asking us whether he could leave his shoe rack in my living room (I rejected), and he left a humungous box outside his room, asking for a few days grace as he wanna send it back home (we agreed) and aso a small fan on top of the box as our room is equipped with a fan and he did not want to place it inside. Lastly, his TV box, is aso left outside his room.

It makes my living room looks messy now that some of his things are left there. He shows no sign of wanting to remove it anytime soon. I told hubs that I would give him 1 month, den we will speak to him. If he cleared within the 1st month, den all is good. Also, there is another tenant in the house, how would she feel if she sees that we allowed him to place his things outside of the room but not her? To be fair, we decided to be firm with the rule of keeping their things strictly inside their room.

For a start, things were quite ok except that we noticed he would close the doors extremely hard as he is lazy to pull down the handles to close the doors. Heart pain is 1 thing, as I always see my main gate vibrating whenever he closes the it, the other thing is, he has the habit of having a smoke early in the morning when he wakes up and late into the night juz before sleeping. Whenever he closes the doors, we will be awake by the loud banging. At 1st, we tried to ignore, but it got irritating after a while.But how do I tell him (an adult) to close to door more softly? It like giving instructions to a baby.

Also, after a wk or so, we noticed he got lazy and did not go downstairs for his smoke. Instead, he would juz stand at the corridoor and smoke away while all the smoke get blows into our living room. Wats the difference of allowing you to smoke inside and outside of the hse??We still get the smoke which is wat we dun wan!!!He would aso leave the door unlock while he smoke and when he walks over to the chute to throw away his ciggie.

To him, SG is safe enuff to leave the door unlock and walk away for a short awhile. Call me kiasee but then given his routine smoking time, I am afraid plp might noticed and "aimed" our hse. We tried toking to him bout locking the door but then the excuse he gave that he is juz outside!!He did however cooperate but onli when he sees us sitting in the living room, once we retreat to our room, he resumes to his old ways thinking that we were aslp.

There was this particular night when I hear him closing the door without locking and came out of my room to the living room, he got a shock and look paiseh when he came bak, but I was oredi beri pissed with his lazy ways. Mum feedback to me that there was once while she was at my hse, he juz came home and leave the door wide open and went to his room for quite sometime while looking for something. Would it kill him to lock the gate after him? He would do this infront of me too.. I cannot imagine if no 1 is ard and he did this and someone juz slipped into our hse without him realising as he closes his room door. I cannot risk it.

We would aso notice his other lazy ways, like washing his clothes after 2 wks and took up all the space we have to hang his clothes. We werent too please as there are 3 other persons doing the washing every wk to clear our laundry. He did not even have the courtesy to check with us if we are going to do the laundry or not and instead take matters into his own hands. He would aso leave his clothes hanging there for wks till he have no more new clothes to wear.

Then, I noticed that he would wear his home clothes revsered so that he can wear it longer. Nearly fainted when he told me this.Government often told us that this foreign talents are need to boost our economy when they come here to work. Tell me, how can he contribute to SG when he is juz down rite lazy? Manager somemore!!!

I listen to his boasting of going to smoking breaks, tea breaks blah blah blah, seems like he worked less than 5hrs a day, got paid as a manager and smmore can sneer that his boss. He told us that he would onli act to be on time on days he knew his boss is coming to office. There was once he woke up late at 7.30 when his work time is 8am. He can calmly go outside for his smoke and still slowly go take a shower. This kind of working attitude would get kicked from my company in no time. I can safely say most of us abide strictly to our working hours, lunch time. The way he describes his working style is as he is takin salary for smoking and having tea break in his company, anyting else, its been directed to his subordinates...

Anyways, enuff is enuff, told hubs to tell him tat we are not use to his living habits and decided that we will not rent out the room to home. He is given a mth's grace to find some place to move to. He tired to plead with us initially, promising he will change, top up the utilities bills (which shot up double since he moved in) etc..but we were firmed in our decision. We couldnt risk trusting him as we do not know when he will revert to his old ways. He den tried to bargain with us, telling us its not easy to find a place to move within a mth's time(bullshit) and ask us to let him stay till he gets a new place.

Luckily, we were prepared for all these, and hubs told him max is 2wks more and he will need to shift out. We do not want him to drag on n on..A day later, he told hubs that he would shift out by the wkend and request us to refund him the remainding rental of the month. We actually had the mind to forfeit it de but decided otherwise for it may be a better idea of him to move out as quickly as possible.

After he moved out, I spent 3days cleanin up his room which is full of smoke smell!!! Damn pissed off, have to use the aroma therapy thingy to smoke the room to get rid of the smell, clean ALL the wardrobe and cupboards, washed the curtains and sweep & mopped the floor. Can you imagine that throughout the 2 mths he is with us, he did not even clean the room? Even the trash bin is full of stains...agggrrrrrr....

Am glad that we got rid of him, and now we have a female singaporean staying in the room. Hopefully she will be better than him. But then again, I think its quite difficult to get someone who is worse than him.

3rd world class

In my line of work, I deal daily with invoices, account of statements, payments, receipts, payroll. I need to handle vendor's queries on non-payments, under or over payments etc..

There is this 1 incident that makes me fuming..It is normal to receive vendors' statement at month and then we have to reconcile the difference and the liasing with the vendor to resolve any discrepancy..

There was this particular invoice from MPA(The Maritime and Port Authority of Singapore) charging us interest for an invoice that we had paid up and within their credit terms. So, I called them up, trying to resolve this problem.

The guy who picked up my call (Mr C) told me that they dun not entertain call in, asking me to write in instead., gave me the in charge's email and told me to write in requesting them to check. Luckily, I have certain experience dealing with government bodies, and thus, I requested for this email too, to keep him CC, in case the person who I should be dealing with did not respond to my query.

True to my prediction, they did not respond despite me sending reminders every 3 days( they need 3 days to response as stated in their auto reply mail, thus I waited for the dateline to be up before reminding them). 

Its tiring to have to keep remembering to chase them for an answer, but still I keep on sending chaser as it is part of my duties. The most irritating part? They did not even bother to reply me, except for the auto reply.
I had already send so many emails/chaser to them, even if they had not investigate this matter, they can at least reply me to say that they are looking into this matter, but no, nothing, not a single reply from them at all..

The last stalk came when I received another interest charge this month, meaning to say not only they ignored my query, they continued to let the mistake carrying on, billing us the interest. I knew if I do not take any action, this thing will not get resolve anytime soon.

Their websites only stated the common email for us to send our queries to, but I've tried sending before and got no reply, so this time, I decided to write to their higher management, hoping to get the problem solved once and for all without me having to send chaser every 3 days and while having to explain to my management why we are being charged interest monthly. It seems like we are not doing our job in making sure payment is prompt.

The thing about complaining to the higher management (in this case the financial controller), the reply will come in faster than you say "chaser". Mr C who I found out is the manager of credit management, immediately replied me saying that the interest will be wavied within this week.

This Mr C, is all along being CCed in my mails and the chasers but then he chose to ignore me, also he was the one who insist me writing an email to them for the wavier.But he didnt take any action though he saw me asking time n again on this issue. Instead, the mintue I escalate this issue to his superior, he can emailed me bak saying that they can get it wavied within the wk even though he is on MC.

Why do you need me to blow up the issue before replying me? Should you have looked into wat I brought up in the 1st place, I would not have bring this to your superior to get you to work. I am utterly disappointed with the way the government sector employees work. I mean, we always claimed to have a world class system. Yet,with this encounter, had not been me who took the effort to went an extra mile to write in to the higher management, hoping to resolve this issue, it would have been left hanging there and my company will continue to recevie the interest charge every month.

This is the difference between private and public sector. 2 wks after this MPA issue, I got  a statement from Raffles medical stating non-payment from us. I reconciled, and found that we have paid most of the mentioned invoice, others being not due for payment or non-receipt of the invoice. Wrote them an email, highlighting my concern, within half an hr, a staff called me back to liase with me on this issue.

I do not expect every 1 to be this efficient. Sometimes, we need time to go investigate the claims, but 1 month of no reply from them is realli my limit. It only goes to show how bad their attitude is. In my case, I am liable to answer to my superiors on the interest charged and therefore would make an extra effort to solve this problem.

We this kind of working attitude, I am sure we are going toward world class system, but is 3rd World...

Same same but diffferent

Hubs told me that his accountant came bak to work after a 2mths break from work due to his miscarriage...

He told me that she looked quite fine on her 1st day of work,even found time to ask about me and sent her regards despite us facing the same situation...

Hubs told me that he didnt dare to ask bout her well being for fear upsetting her.

I told hubs, though she look normal on the outside, but then deep down inside, she may not feel the same anymore.

It felt as though as everything is bak to normal, working, shopping, eating, net surfing, gathering, but then deep down inside me, there is always a void within me.

During bath time, I would sometimes be reminded that during my short pregnancy, I would tok to XB inside me, tellin him tat its bath time, asking him to njoy the water. Not sure whether this helps, but I read from fwens that they did tat during their pregnancies so that BB will not be scared of water during bath time next time..

On the surface, everyting seems to be the same as before, but then I noe someting is different within me oredi, I guess the same goes for every woman who went thru this path.

Same same but different, but life still goes on...

Dressing up

For the past few months, I stopped shopping becuz of my pregnancy & miscarriage..The last time I shopped this yr, is during CNY and then I stopped.

After my miscarriage, I didnt have the mood to go bak shopping, hubs always see this as a sign of depression. Thus, he was quite supportive when he sees me wanting to shop.But then is emotionally, not financially. Whaha

At 1st I couldnt find any clothes to my liking despite Hubs bringing me to nearly all my fav haunts. I felt that no matter wat I tried on, nothing looks good. This is the extend of how bad my mood is. For some1 who shops like me, not able to buy even 1 top during shopping is a serious problem, or so Hubs claims..whhaha

I aso didnt like to go out often, getting tired easily. Hubs patiently encouraged me to go out more, even it is for a short while. Sometimes, after walking 1 round in the mall, without goin into any shops, I would say I wanna go home oredi, nothing hubs can do, but to go with my wishes.

Recently, I went bak to shopping, not the conventional kind, but online. Though abit difficult to judge the sizing intially, but I am proud to say I am still able to buy things tat fits till now. After rounds of buying frm the same seller, I can now judge whether I can fit or not by seeing the measurements they provide.

Until I think I am happie to go bak shopping again, I would temporary stick to this arrangement :)

Injection day

My company organised an flu injection drive today to get us vaccinated with the flu injection or watever it is called...Its pretty rare for a company to arrange for vaccination inhouse, at least in my years of working, this is the 1st time I come across this.

At 1st only the few of us from Finance joined, actually we didnt joined willing, we kinda dared each other to join, with only SH being the scary cat, die die aso dun join.whahah..End up 3 of us plus our FC signed up.

The thing is, I am most afraid of needles, much less volunteering for vaccination. But then cannot lost to the commando-trained uncle who aso is afraid but becuz of our jeering, signed up with us..Whahah..

Turns out not many signed up, onli 16 out of 60 pax. And the clinic realli sent a nurse and representative down to get us vaccined despite the low turn out.

The finance team went in 1st as the room is nearest to us, and we did not want to waste time waiting for the others to go 1st. Commando uncle went 1st and the rest of us are joking with him while he sat there waiting for the nurse to prepare the needles..Nerve wrecking moment I think, I would not want to be in tat position.Like a pig awaiting to be slaughter while the others look on..whahah

Expat colleagues from commercial department cannot understand why we are so happie over the injection and keep looking at the few of us rolling with laughter. But when its our turn, we cannot manage even a smile while sitting on the "injection chair"hur hur..

I think they were pretty amused by us but nonetheless, got use to us being noisy...heheh

The teasing continued even after injection as we start to compare who's arm is going numb, who is having flu symtomps oredi, who's injection bite is still bleeding..whahah And of cuz, we didnt let SH off, keep "encouraging" him to go for the injection since there are spares..He refused to budge, its only when the nurse and the representative left, then he felt "safe".Even that, our teasing didnt realli stop. I reckon it can continue for the next 2 wks till we find something new to tease.

Speaking of which, am feeling abit feverish now..damn, hope I wun develop flu like wat they say...

Going rest early today....Or so I wished...heheh

Feeling low

Haf you ever experienced a few days tat you will feel down?Everything that you do dun go according to plan, dress you wore dun feel rite, you lack of self-confidence, you are just passing days..

I do haf these periods once in a while, recently came back again. Every morning when I look into the mirror, everything I choose for work doesnt feel rite. I am usually pretty confident with my dressing. Though I belong to the bigger sized gals, I did not feel bad about myself.

I felt good in my body despite being abit on the plump side. But during these days, I cannot find my confidence, everything I wore seems to be bring out the worse in me. I hate this kind of feeling. It is not depression, but then it does affect me in some way or another.

I feel like taking a break, a short 1 will do, maybe half a day. To haf abit of "me-time". Where I can go to a book shop, choose a book and read there while sipping coffee and watching the world go by. I like the feeling of seeing every 1 rushing to somewhere while I sit there watching, knowing tat I need not rush to somewhere, feeling relax and laid back.

Then, pop by the shops to do some shopping, taking my time to go over the clothes without hafin to squeeze with the crowds. I feel like walking ard aimlessly while listening to my MP3, awaiting for the next good bargain I may find while shopping.

Lastly, to take a long bus ride home when I can sleep and rest during the journey. I missed the feeling of getting a seat on those long journey bus and start to day dream b4 falling aslp during the journey. Used to do it during sch days where I would take buses onli no matter how long the journey is, juz to save on the MRT fares.

Well, the more I write, the more I feel like taking half a day off to go on this little adventure. Heehe, shall go back to office and check out my calender where I had planned my work schedules. Muz find time to work around the datelines to find time for my "Me-time"..

Now reading-Chicken Soup for the Soul

The last time I read the chicken soup for the soul series was when I was in secondary sch. I love their short stories, inspiring, humourous, touching...Its one of those books that you can relax while reading the short stories..

Recently, not sure why its back in the trend again, Popular is having sales on the series and I took the chance to buy "The Magic of Mother & Daughter" title. This is especially close to my heart, having being beri close to my mum, sharing nearly everyting with her and vice versa..

When I was pregnant back then, I was secretly hoping for a gal, wishing the trait of close mother & daughter ties will pass on to my next generation, I too want to become my gal's mum & best fwen, just like my mum & I...

Although I had lost my child, I had not lost hope in getting pregnant again, reading the many stories inside makes me reflect on my relationship with my mummy, some are similar to wat we went thru, some shed light on how the older generation feel on certain issues, some can prepare me to better handle my daughter shd I be blessed with 1..

Reading it, lightens up my mood while savouring the stories of others, at time, reminding me of my own...

I hope, 1 day, I will be able to note down the little stories of my daughter and I, remembering the details of her growing up, from a baby to toddler, to a school child, to teenager and finally leaving me to start another family of her own.. This, would be the greatest thing in life, for a daughter is a mother's gender partner, her closest ally in the family, an extension of her self :)

My england is beri powderful

My mum comes from a chinese/dialet speaking background, was educated in Chinese schs and she onli picked up english when we start schooling. Even then, she didnt pick up much from us as we struck to speaking  mandarin at home.

Despite that, she is 1 courageous woman to me, she is totally not shy speaking to others using her half past 6 english. Many times, still feeling proud of the fact that she dared to converse in english.

So, we tried to help her as much as we can, by correcting & teasing her whenever she got some phase/words wrong. 1 might scare that she will be angry, but its juz the opposite!! She is proud of her funnie pronunciation and continued with it..

Here are some examples for the funnier 1..


David Bacon = David Beckham (Sounds similar, at least to her)

Africa = Apricot (Dun ask me why, its after she showed me the fruit then I knew what she was trying to tell me)

Lobut = Robot (Hokkien style)

Chart = Charge (Hokkien style)

Ladio = Radio (Hokkien style)

Celebrate = Separate (Sounds similar to her again, though she knew celebrate is wrong, but she juz cannot prounce separate)

Lorec = Rolex (I guess this is common among hokkien speaking ppl)

8-lay =  8-days (wat's up with all the L pronunciation??)

Pakgate = Package (Her latest 1 tat send us rolling with laughter on the floor)

There are more that I cannot recall..Will try to compile again when they come to my mind..hehhe

September is over,Here comes October

In a blink of eyes, September flew past faster than I know. Its been 2 months since I lost XB, 1 month since I went back to work.I must admit. Things seems to be on track now.

I've been confirmed by my company even though I missed nearly 2/3 of my 3mths probation. Body is more or less recovered, since I have been going to Chinese Sinseh every sat and have been dilligently taking the prescribed medicine twice a day.

Sometimes, even I am impressed with myself. For the sake of getting my body into shape for the next blessing, I drowned down wat I presumed I would rather be sick den to drink medicine. All these, I hope will bear fruits eventually :)

Mentally, I knew I am getting better. Going to work does help. Toking & joking with my colleagues, getting busied over work makes me feel that I am back to the good old days. Though sometimes, just b4 falling aslp, I cannot help but to think of XB.

Another milestone is, I finally got ard meeting fwens. Huge step for me, as I am not sure initially how to handle the attention on my loss and how not to breakdown while relating the loss or even worse, try to act as if nothing had happened.

For the 1st time in months, I met up with partner, not a grp meeting but a 1on 1 meet up. I guess I had to start to re-assure my fwens that I am well now and not let them worried bout me even more. Though while relating to her on my loss, tears nearly flowed, but I think I can handle my emotions better now.

We caught up quite bit besides the loss, makes me miss the other 2 sisters. But then I am not ready to go out often. Preferred to come home after work as I am tired and would do some reading to realx my mind.

Hubs is aso feeling more relaxed, for I am no longer in my depressed mode and we are back to old times. We tried to go shopping more often so that he will not be too bored and especially armed with his new toy, he is excited to go ard shopping new "clothes" for his toy. I am happie to go along with him, making up the lost time.

As we embraced October, I do hope that I will become better. As someone once told me, I would neber be the same after the loss, as I will always feel the lost within me, but I can thrive to live better for the sake of my loss 1 and go on to await for god's next blessing. This, would be the only thing I can do in memory of XB.

My little brother

Past by pasar malam(night markets) on our way hm the other day and I saw the cotton candy stall as our car drove by. Suddenly, I realised I missed my kiddy brother a lot. I still remember my dating days where hubs & I will without fail go down to pasar malams when it sets up near my house. Without fail, we would buy a pack of cotton candy back for my kid brother when going hm.

Thus every time when my bro learns tat we are going to pasar malam, he would wait for us to come home eagerly so that he gets to eat his favourite cotton candy. Ever since we got married and shifted to our own house, I dun buy cotton candy for him anymore..

I guess this is part of growing up, you get distanced with your siblings as you build your own family. I dun get to see him often when I shifted out, used to be monthly when I bring mummy out for dinner after payday and would ask him to go along, but then it all changed when he shifted to his gf hse earlier this year.

Now, he doesn't really calls home, didn't bother to come home unless mummy is cooking or he needs to get/bring back things. Dun even know how he is getting on at his gf place. Only time we get to see him is when he meets mummy for dinner once in a blue moon and I would tag along.

Seriously, I miss him a lot, though we have our quarrels while growing up, we were pretty close, I am just like a 2nd mum to him, keeping him in check when mummy gets too soft hearted or busy. Guided and helped him to make many of his major decisions in his earlier part of life. Neber tot we could grew so distance in a matter of months.

As he moved on to his new phase of life, I knew I had to loose my grip on him and allowed him to make decisions on his own..Now, the only thing I can do is to wait for him to approach me should he need any guidance/advice, else, I would just need to give him the space he wanted.

Tom, Dick, Harry & Peter

Many deem hubs to be the quiet n more blocked headed 1 between the 2 of us.

Wat many did not know is,he had got his own sense of humor hidden well from the public eyes.

Check out the below conversation 1 nite..

Hubs : Who did u go dinner with juz now while I'm at work?

Me: Alot, Tom, Dick, Harry & Peter

Hubs : 骗人,cannot be all of them lo

Me: Why not?

Hubs: Dick is with me all along, how to haf dinner with you??

Busy wkend

My hubs is well known for going after the newest phone..Of cuz with iPhone 5 coming to our shores tmr, how can he pass up the chance of buying at the 1st chance he had?

He had register his interest with both Singtel & M1, making me register my interest too as my contract is free to recontract already. Didnt want to lose any chance of laying his hand on the phone you see..

Yesterday, Singtel opened their appointment booking at 10pm sharp, and only those who had registered their interest gets an invitation email to book an appt to buy the phone. Its double work in my opinion. If you had registered your interest, obviously you wanna buy rite?Why the need to log in again to book an appt? Waste of time. Anyways, I think its their way of marketing, so if wanna buy, bo bian..

So, at 10pm, hubs enlisted my help to try log on to the booking system. PC, lappie, iPad, iPhones, every gadget tat can log on to the net, we used to try to get into the system, some using our home internet, some using our phone data, hoping to get lucky.

We managed to get into the system once, but was boot out for no reason at some point while moving on to the next page. Hubs nearly flipped. Tried again for the next half hr with me giving up, and him continuing refreshing the pages on the various gadgets.

He managed to get a slot in the end, though not his ideal model, but then he is finally able to secure phone purchase on both fri & sat nite and I am suppose to acc him to MBS to collect the phone in midst of the F1 race going on there. Man, its gonna be so crowded..

Its gonna be a busy wkend of us..

Touched..

Twice today, I felt touched, beri touched that plp are still concerned over my well being despite me hafin the miscarriage 1 & a half mth ago.

During lunch, part time bf smsed me and check on my well being and asked me to meet her b4 her trip overseas so that she can noe I am well now.. Realli felt beri touched that despite me not attending her wedding during my initial pregnancy stage, not meeting her & the other gals during my pregnancy as I am instructed to move ard less and not meeting up with them again after my miscarriage as I am not in the mood to go out, she texted me on n off to make sure that I am well and not giving me pressure to meet her as she noes I need time to adjust..

I noe she is beri concerned over my well being, while trying hard not to pressurised me to let go of my loss, she needs to make me open up. Striking a balance is neber easy, texted me too often, it seem like giving me pressure, texting me too infrequent, it makes her seem unconcerned. I know she is trying her best to be her for me at the same time giving me some space to mourn. Realli grateful to her, I noe I can count on you part time, I promised to meet you b4 ur trip to catcha up:)

Then near to off work time, I met my MD's secretary while goin to the ladies. Truth to be told, we werent consider close,  just colleagues, yet everytime when she bumped into me, she will check on my recent well being, offering some tips, giving encouragement. She could haf smiled and just walked off or juz engage in small polite small tok, but she always take some time off to chat with me, to find out on my well being. Its realli touching can? Given she dun realli tok to others, this small gesture of hers is realli realli sweet.

Tat said, I noe there are many more others who are concerned, like my bestie, who despite being pregnant herself, will text me to check on me every other few days. My twin who has juz been blessed with a boi recently, checked on me every other few days too though he is tied up with his then heavily pregnant wife, jie jie who works near me is still waiting patiently for me to go lunch with her...heheh..Last but not least, my mummy, who will need call me everyday to hear my voice, though she is not as worried as during initial stages, she still checks on me daily...

I am gettin better, realli, for the sake of my dear family & fwens, for the sake of hafin another 1, I will move on strongly, though pain is still there, but I take all these in my stride..

I am not alone

These are the exact words that my fwen told me when she learnt of my miscarriage.. It does sounds hurtful at 1st, I mean, even I am not alone, cant I mourn?

Later, when I calmed down, I start to realise, realli I am not alone in this miscarriage saga. After learning of our loss, many ard us start to share their stories with us..

My boss, lost hers at 7wks, neber got ard hafing another 1, perhaps due to her age, perhaps due to work stress, we didnt manage to find out.

My colleague's wife, miscarriage twice, but went on in between to have 2 more children.

Hubs' colleague,S, who lost hers 1st and went to haf a cute gal who is 2 years old now.

Hubs' cousin-in law, who got preggies ard the same time as me, lost hers too and she lost her previous 1 too, but had 2 healthy children before.

My twin's wife, who miscarriage twice and had just given birth to a healthy boy recently.

Hub's boss, who miscarriage and had a bubbly gal now aged 6.

Hub's accountant who also lost hers at 14wks juz 2 wks after me and is on 2 mths break now.

Even the doc admistrating GA on me, told me she suffered a miscarriage b4 going to go give birth to 2 healthy children.

The most scary 1 being, my mummy's neighbour who told me she lost hers at 5mths due to bb not developing properly.

There are many more stories I heard, many started to open up and shared their stories or their fwens' stories with us, hoping to let us noe, they feel for us, they knew wat we were going thru.

We realised nearly every other person had the experience of miscarriage be it their 1st or subsequent pregnancie.

My mum was wondering aloud the other day, dunno whether our generation are weaker or her generation is made of harder stuff.

She had 3 of us smoothly, did not even haf morning sickness!!!

Perhaps is becuz she is a stay at home mum while I am juggling new work and not to mention renovations, staying with in-laws during my pregnancy bak then.

Anyhow, though I know I am not alone, it didnt take the pain away.

Not being alone doesnt mean it doesnt hurt.

Not being alone doesnt mean it helps, in fact I dun wish for any 1 to experience this as it is realli a painful experience, physically and mentally. More so, if you lost yours like my way.

I know I am not alone, but seriously how does this help?