Hope that you are well

Dear Xiao Bao,

Its been 7 days since we lost you, how are you getting on in your world? Is everything well there? Mummy and daddy miss you alot you know? The heartache didnt ease abit even though it has been a week. Do you know when mummy misses you, I will take out the ultrasound pictures to look at you? I especially love the 11wk pic where you were waving at us while doing the scan, daddy and mummy was so happie bak then..

Though asking ourselves many times, we didnt noe where went wrong that causes us to lose you. Mummy went thru rounds and rounds of self blaming though every 1 had told me that it is not my fault. But as your mummy, as the 1 who is responsible to keep you safe in my womb and bringing you to this world, it cannot be denied tat I failed in my job.

I realli wan you to know that we oredi tried our best in keeping you, decision that we made last wk is not becuz we dun love you but is becuz of our love for you. We wanted the best for you, and the doctor said this is the best for you, we wanted you to have a better life, a better environment, thus this decision. It pains us alot to let you go, but we still did...

Every night before I go to slp, I will tink of you, how happie I was when you were still within me, I would stroke my tummy to cajole you to slp, or how I will tok to you when I was bathing or during toilet breaks at work, tell you to bear with it abit while mummy work..Or how daddy will tok to you everynight or morning and when mummy gets off car to work..

Did you also rememeber all the nutritious food that you ate while inside mummy?Its all prepared with love from daddy or ah ma..Though daddy loves fast food more but he rather stayed at home on weekends preparing  whole day just to cook lunch and dinner for you. If not mummy is expecting, we might not even know how to do marketing, its becuz of you tat mummy n daddy went to market dilligently every wkend hoping to buy fresh food to prepare for you.

Actually mummy also want to thank you for your short presence in me, bringin out the best in us while preparing ourselves for your arrival. I noe you will want mummy and daddy to get on well here and be strong juz like when you were fighting in mummy during the last few days. Mummy is trying her very best but still at times, especially in the middle of night or early in the mornin when I wake up to go toilet, I will be reminded of you. I desperately wanted to know whether you are well in the other world, I desperately wanted to tell you 1 last time that I loved you cuz I didnt had the time to bid you a good farewell back then.

The most precious memories that you left for us will be well-kept, for when daddy & mummy miss you alot, we can have some photos to look at, this is our only way to rememeber you and we are realli thankful for that 5photos. Xiao Bao, please be well at the other world, for the only reason we let you go is want you to be well.

Love,

Daddy & Mummy Lee